Confession...

I have a confession to make...and I am seriously embarrassed and you might judge my mothering skills. Here it goes...Mister still drinks a bottle before bed. Today I tried putting water in a small bottle (in the photo above) and he threw it across the room. He LOVES his baba, I mean... eyes rolling in the back of his head loves it. So I have indulged him. I will however not go into his 2 year check up and tell my doctor that he is still on the sauce. So I have to get moving...any tips. Poor baby, I am about to take away his very favorite thing!

Here is my only photo form Las Vegas...of food. Typical.

And...a new little set of bows that I added to the shop today!

Hello...

Boyfriend and I just got back from fabulous Las Vegas...we were actually going to Cobo, but the night before our flight, my man realized that his passport expired in January. Whomp whomp. So...we headed south and had a perfect time!

Thank you to my sweet Mom for taking such good care of my booboo!

Here are a few new headbands that I added to the shop today...don't you just love the new glitter bands...I AM OBSESSED!

Its about time...

We have been having beautiful weather! I love it and my Mister does too. Isn't he so sweet?!

And...isn't his shirt the cutest?...It has a little gold wolf on it and its made by this cute girl.

Grateful...

Sometimes I get sad thinking about what we, as a family are missing out on with the miscarriage. I especially think of my mister and how perfect the age gap would have been, and how close they were sure to be. Sometimes I cry...but then I look at my boy and I tell myself that he is all I ever need...that I have been overly blessed, to be his mom. Anytime I have a sad thought about this situation, I ALWAYS name a blessing right after...it is only fair. I have so much.

Poor boyfriend had to go in for surgery, so I have been very busy taking care of my 2 boys.

We found this old photo of our house...can you even believe it??? Seriously, it looks like the only house in Provo!

And a few more of my honey man...I love him so.

HI...We have FREE SHIPPING in the shop today, HOORAY!

Just enter louandleefree at checkout.

Hello...

I added a few new itty bitty things for little newborns to the shop today...I hope you likey!

Easter fun...

Happy Easter...

From my handsome boy...

Im not going to lie...This Easter Sunday was interesting to say the least (it was just one of those days for me)... But I know Mister loved it and had such a fun day, so thats all that really matters.

he LOVED his basket and was so excited when he saw it...he went a-running for it!

Yesterday we dyed eggs with Sister and her family...so much fun. Cant you tell how thrilled Monie is...? She really was having fun, but I rolled when I saw this photo.

I am so thankful for this special day. What a miracle to celebrate!

Thank you...

I cant say thank you enough for all of the comments, emails, flowers and cards that I received about my last post. This has made me love blogging all over again. I don't know what I would have done without the kind words.

And...I dont know what I would have done without my sweet mother, Sister and boyfriend.

This experience has been a nightmare...sad, disappointing and humbling all at the same time. At this point I am just trying to get back to my everyday life and do the things I did before.

Love these babies...

My Mom flew into town as fast as can be and I am so thankful for her. She tried to keep me busy with baking and just basically being her sweet self.

She left yesterday...so sad.

...But we are happy and blessed in so many ways.

My little baby...

Today it happened....What will inevitably happen to all of us (in varying degrees) at some point...Today I had the worst day of my life so far...

In a nutshell: I went in to my doctor, found out that I was 16 weeks pregnant (I was off on my dates so I wasn't sure how far along I was) then found out that I had lost our sweet little baby. I knew the moment I saw that little body on the screen that it was lifeless. Heartbreak. Im am writing this because I know that there are so many woman who have gone through similar experiences, because I want to have a record of this day and because I want ask for your prayers. I go in for my D&C tomorrow and I am so nervie.

I am so thankful for my beliefs. For the knowledge that I will get to raise this little baby after this life, that he was so sweet and innocent that he only needed to receive a body for such a short time and was able to quickly return home to his father in heaven.

outside...

It was so pretty here yesterday...Mister and I were outside pretty much all day, blowing bubbles and playing in the yard.

Boyfriend got his bikes out...and Mister is VERY serious about his...as you can see in the above photo. He would sit on that thing all day if I let him.

And a few videos of our day...

First hair cut...

Mister was as sweet as can be while Sarah cut his hair...he held very still and was very proud of himself.

I will try to get a better photo of his cute now do...she basically just buzzed the sides...

He looks very big! First haircut...first lolly pop...

love him!

Need milk???

I took this cute video of Mister a while back...I just loved seeing his little imagination in action. This might only be so cute to me because I am his adoring mother...

You cant really see that there is a little kitty figurine that he is asking "you need milk?" to. He also calls it a "meow"... Anyway, I thought I would share my cute boy with you, he's magical.

So in love...

Here is me and my sweet boy. (dont mind the stamp on his forehead or his scraggly Mum) I love this boy more than I can say. He is my partner, we are best friends. I get to take care of, teach and play with him everyday and I DO NOT take that for granted. When you think about raising these babies and teaching them everything you know, loving them and doing what is best for them...only to have them leave you (in a sense) in the end to live their own lives and make their own decisions...It makes motherhood sound like a very cruel trick...But...oh so very worth it.

Getting our Hobby Lobby on...

My little leprechaun...

Mister is currently obsessed with the potty...or more like washing his hands. He knows that when he asks to sit on the potty the next step is that he gets to wash his hands...which is like going to Disney land. So we do this a couple of times a day...

Lately...

Amy and I took the children to the park and Jude was rocked into a trance on the swing. (I wish I could say that he put his shoes on the wrong feet, but that was me...)

And...our babies, looking a little rough around the edges after playing all day.

I posted this sweet tiny headband in the shop today...it is perfect for a blessing or christening...