Im back baybee!!!

Just kidding, I'm not but I thought I would blog while I was by a computer that isn't a Mac and I somewhat know how to use. Is the photo of Jr. in the hospital the saddest thing you have ever seen? Seriously, I don't know how people do it...have and raise children. I think the fact that I have a twin sister that I am so close to ...I HAVE SEEN TOO MUCH. My heart breaks too easy I think. Not that other peoples don't but I don't think I am capable of seeing a child suffer emotionally or physically. Having a family is my goal...its just the getting myself to actually do it that is going to be the hard part. I see Pookie and Jr. and I love them so much, I just don't know what I would do if anything ever happened to them, children of my own would be even more to freak out over. I hope that doesn't sound bad because I don't mean it that way at all. Anyway, the other photo is Adam, Granny and I at Seaport Village in San Diego a few weeks ago for my brother Walkers graduation, he got his masters and I'm very proud of him.

whats new...

It has been a crazy last few weeks...I am the worst blogger in the world. I still don't have my computer or cable for that matter. I wish I could say its because I'm not into that kind of stuff and I think it rots your brain...but I miss it terribly and I don't think it rots your brain...I mean you can learn a lot of life lessons from Big Brother. So anyway, the whole thing with sister and Simone almost sent me into the nut house. Maybe one of the worst things I have ever had to see people I love go through. The thought of something happening to that tiny helpless baby was more than I could handle and seeing sister in so much pain (physically and emotionally) was like a knife in my heart. My mom and I were just trying to be so stong for her...but the second she left the room we were crying our eyes out. I dont know what I would do without faith. BUT things are good and she is an angel. Our house is good but still having issues with the downstairs bathroom...two holes in the ceiling and they set my sink off center and now they might have to rip my wallpaper off to fix it...but I think it's real cute and I like being in my own home so much. My mom has been here forever and she leaves tomorrow and I'm so so sad. I really have tons of photos to blog...I just don't know when I will do it. I kind of miss it a little bit.

Punkie...

This little girl is such a bug! So, cute and such a good baby...you should see my Pookie with her, so sweet and loving, Im not going to lie I thought she was going to drag her around by her hair and both physically and mentally abuse her...but no, such a good big sister. I cant belive sister has two babys, its just crazy to me. I feel like I dont need to have kids because I already have two. Its been so fun to spend so much time with Pookie, she is an Aunties girl. Love her so much...might kidnap her.
How bad do I suck blogging, I still dont have my computer up. Not much going on anyway...