A few things to know about Mister...

1. He LOVEs shoes...in fact he collects them...
2. He is not blonde and bald...

While it might not be a lot...He DOES have some brown hair which he is loosing on the sides as we speak. Not sure why he photographs so bald and light!? Either way, he is as cute as they come.

3. His Mommy and Auntie went and saw this last night, and while they had the time of their lives laughing at katherine heigl's airbrushed and at times replaced body in the movie...they couldn't believe how AWFULL it was.

Letting go...

So, I pretty much have not left my house for months. I was on bed rest at the end of my pregnancy and I have been too nervie to take Mister out. I always said..."I will start taking him out at six weeks." and now he will be six weeks tomorrow. Im not sure how I feel about this. If you know me at all you know I can be anxious...this is my new "anxiety"...taking him out into the world is what I am focused on. I was thinking today about Monie and what that must have been like for sister to see her newborn baby SO sick in the hospital. She was so strong...could I be strong like her? I realize I cant live my life like this, afraid of what COULD happen to him. Not to mention people live their lives everyday... an obvious statement for most. So, Im trying to let go of my fears. I want to get Mister out, not to mention its what is best for his immune system. So tomorrow is the day...Im turing over a new leaf...changing my thought process. We will be MOM AND SON ABOUT TOWN...thats what you will call us. Movers and shakers. Completely carefree of this germ infested world. kidding.../not

Here are some photos from my phone...thats all I ever take because my phone is always right there and my camera isn't.

Can you believe those dimps? He is pretty much giggling these days.

Big time...

Yes...Mister is 15.

I don't know what is worse...A) the fact that Jude is in a pink Bumbo seat. B) the fact that he is sitting in that pink bumbo seat on a chair. or C) the fact that the moment I turned my back for one second Estee was trying to shove that cupcake in his mouth.

I promise Im a good Mommy to you Jude.

So happy...

Please forgive the nursing bra...and the fact that Im pasty white...and have no makeup on. Lets just say I have seen better days. But how could I pass up posting this photo of me and Mister. He is all smiles...when he's not yelling at me.

Estee is so cute with Jude. She told me when he was crying, all you have to do is say to him "Im here baby, Im here." How cute is that? Sister must say that to her when she cries.

We are loving you so much Jude. Some nights you sleep a total of 4 hours and some nights we get REALLY lucky and you sleep 6 1/2 hours in a row... like last night. Hoping for more nights like that but not holding our breath. You are getting so big and strong...you even rolled over the other day. Your daddy and I couldn't believe our eyes. It is so sweet when you give me that gummy smile I can hardly hold back the tears. You make us so, so happy. Thank you.

BFF...

Oscar + Jude

How cute are these two? Oscar is only 8 days older than Jude. It was seriously the funniest/most darling thing ever seeing them together. They are already besties... holding hands and whatnot.

Happy Birthday Mister...

I cant believe you are a month already Jude. You have already changed so much. Sometimes when you fall asleep, I lay next to you and get as close to your face as I can. I take you in, your little hands in motion, your nursing lips and your sweet breath...oh that sweet, sweet breath. I try to not take one minute of this time for granted...when I hold you sometimes I cry a little because I know there will come a day when I cant hold you in my arms and rock you to sleep. Simply put baby boy...I love you. You are what I was put on this earth for.

Re-Grand opening...

Just wanted to let anyone who is interested know that I will be re-opening the shop at the end of August. I am taking a FEW special orders now, so e-mail me if you are in desperate need.

Its been a while...

First off... I promise Jude is not in his jammies all day everyday. (all I have posted is photos of him in his p.j.s, which really is sad because the child has the cutest/most clothes in the world)


Here is the Mister Grumpus in his bouncy chair. He liked that for about 5 min. today.

And...look how I found him sleeping. Oh mister, what am I going to do with you?!

It has been a crazy past couple of weeks. I love this little boy more than I ever knew could be possible. Boyfriend and I look at him everyday and say to each other..."can you believe he is here and so perfect".

I do feel very out of the loop. What is going on out there in the real world?

Right now...

I am sitting on our bed listening to boyfriend sing and hum lullabies to our newborn son in his nursery. Heaven is on earth.

Jude and his room...

"when perfectly dry, his flesh sweet and pure, he is the most kissable object in nature" -marion harland

Here is a little photo of Jude's nursery...sister is going to come down and take more for me. It really turned out pretty cute.
Look at Mister at one week old. I'm pretty sure that he is the most adorable child EVER.

Beautiful boy...

My heart is so full today...I can not believe that I have this perfect little baby boy to love. How do I deserve this? Every time I look into his little face I get a bit teary eyed, he is everything I hoped and prayed for and more. It is truly overwhelming.

My Sweet Mister all dressed up and ready to go home...he looked like such a big boy and was busting his stretchy pants at the seams.

Also, Jude and I wanted to wish boyfriend a VERY happy fathers day. Adam truly is an amazing father already. Seeing him with our baby boy makes me fall even more in love with him. Seeing the love that he has for his son is one of THE most special things I think I will ever know. Thank you Adam for all that you do for us and for changing Misters mustard buns. We love you too much.

And to my sweet father, I couldn't have a better Daddy. Thank you for always being there for me and for being such a wonderful father that is so close with his girls!

My Mister...

Jude Walker Harward

10 lbs. 1 oz. and we couldn't love him more.

Sister took a ton of beautiful photos... so I will post some better ones soon, but these are all we really had here. He is so healthy and beautiful, it made ever second of the most brutal 22 hours of my life MORE than worth it.

Have you ever been told...

that you are looking at 42 weeks? I was told that today.

Mister, where are you???

So, my due date came and went yesterday...and as ready as I am to have him here (so, so ready)...you can see that the nursery is still not. The stripes on the celling are still missing a color but i thought I would post a few photos from my phone anyway.

And...how cute is the bedding for his bassinet? My mom made it and I am obsessed with it, you cant even see all of the cute detail and how absolutely darling it really is in this photo. If you click on the photo big you can see the green and white vintage anchor fabric (also used on the crib) that was a treasure Sister and I found and fought over...and finally agreed that whoever had the first boy could have. Turns out I WIN! Thanks sisty.

It might actually happen...

I cant believe it, Misters room is really coming along. Here are some really bad photos from my phone that I took of the room yesterday. They are coming to mud, tape and texture today.

Im feeling pretty good about things. I think I have about everything I need. Now its just a matter of waiting for Mister to decide when he wants to meet us. Without going into details, Im progressing but nothing that requires me to rush on down to the hospital. I have a feeling he's going to take his time. I also have a feeling he is going to be a big boy. Cant wait. Say a little prayer that when the time comes we both do great.

This is looking into the nursery

and this is from the inside of the nursery, closet on the right...
And I had to post this. Sister sent it to my phone a couple of days ago...I ROLLED. They came down yesterday and we might have ventured out for lunch. I was nice to get out of the house for a minute. Don't tell my mom.

Happy Birthday...

To my favorite girl. Is she turning 15? No, 4.

I couldn't help but use this photo...she loves dress up more than anything and Amy and I rolled at this getty-up. She looks like some sort of tween, so it kind of makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time.

Doing nothing makes you a great blogger...

First off let me say...

How does Sister do it? A lot of times people will say "oh, your sister has that fancy camera, that takes such beautiful photos"...it drives me nuts for 2 reasons. 1. Not to be mean at all, but lots of people have the same camera and their photos don't look like sisters (she is going to kill me for writing that) and 2. Look at the magic that she captured with her iphone, no editing just pure talent for capturing moments and lighting.

That being said, this is MY girl. I cant tell you the love I have for her and Im obsessed with this photo of her curled up on my big tummy with her favorite blankie and bar of soap!? My Pookie.

Partners...

My bed and I. Bed rest...I should ask my sister-in-law Erin about it...she's been on it for about 15 years. Im supposed to lay around all day and only get up to go to the bathroom and to "put something in the microwave" (Dr.s words not mine). My blood pressure is sky rocketing, and he doesn't want it to get any higher or its c-section city for me and the Mister. Its funny how all I wanted to do was lay in bed until I was told that I have too.
Here I am today on my first day...no makeup (and why would I) plus I went to bed with my hair wet (I got to use my fancy shower downstairs for the first time ever last night...very luxurious) As you can see Im not in bed...but Im headed that way. I left my sodie (which I probably shouldn't be drinking) on the desk and thought I would blog. Thats the scoop...

Go bold...

...or go back to the Home Depot for a new paint color!?

Im not known for subtle paint colors...but this one is a real humdinger. I love it, but I don't. But I do...

All I know is that I have 2 fully functioning bathrooms and that makes me as happy as a clam.

Packing my bags...

So, since I only have 2 weeks (which Im sure means 4) I started to get my bag packed....and then I thought, what in heavens name do I put in this bag!? I would love to hear some of the things you wish you would have packed but forgot or something that you took and you were so happy that you had it. It would be so very helpful.

Hope you had a wonderful Memorial day.